The only thing more confusing in my life than chemistry.. Girls..

My heart

I noticed during ccf tonight how when im singing praise songs whatever is really on my heart comes to my mind and I end up standing there thinking about that for awhile be it school, certain people, things I want to grow and how I want to do it. Its like people say they do there best thinking in the shower will idk I mean I try to focus on God but its really the only time the best ideas come out of my heart and into my head.

My heart feels really heavy as of late for idk several reasons. It isint sure how it feel about relationships there so confusing and can be so painful and the only thing my heart really wants to be doing is running around like a kid in the woods outside in the summer like weather like I did for awhile today. I showed up back at the house soaked with a jar full of crawfish and minnows. Then passed out on the couch. I feel like I have senioritus but im not a senior anymore.... maybe is ready for my new major itus?
ugh idk I'm feeling really really really blah.


God should hold the key to my heart.. and anyone who wants that key should have to grow close to him to be able to find it

Im testing moble blogging. Sometimes when im feeling blogging inspiration I need an easier way to blog then to find an internet connection for my laptop so im trying the option of writting a blog from my phone.

Homework, midterms, and life

Today..wow by the end of the day I never really remember the morning. It feels like months ago. Didnt have a clue what my professor was talking about in Chem lecture after that I grabbed some food and worked on Chem homework taking a break to go to zoo lecture. I then grabbed my Chem work and rushed back to the science building to check out this chemistry help session thing. It was pretty cool I got my work done!!! Now i've got to work on understanding it more. Nerf gun fight was fun my nerf gun totally rules. Hobnobbing was good lots of people and fun times. Got my Physical geology quiz done and soon to go to bed for a long day of hopefully completely writting a paper and studying? Tomorrow. If my grades were a plant they would be a sycamore tree. Cuz they just look sick more :/ hope that can change soon.